How would it have been now?
How would it have been now?
Would we still be fighting ? ...about clothes, for watching TV..
Would we still be arguing about the 'pettiest' of things?
Would I still be jealous of you, just coz you are smarter and prettier? because you are more responsible and because mom and dad most of the times supported you?
Would I still bug you with the 'silliest' of doubts in 'Maths'?
Would we still get the same dresses for all the festivals? Would I still be comparing which one of us got the better one?
Would I still complain about you just to get you in trouble?
Would I still always want to do the same thing you do? would I still try to imitate you in everything?
Would we still have 'fist-fights'?
Would we still have 'Konjacs' episodes with babbling conversations like ' kujjlu bujjlu, kundhala bundhala' that only u and I understood?
Would I still be using all your things and irresponsibly losing/damaging them?
...How would it have been now?
I am sure it would still be the same..although you are gone physically, at every instant of time, I keep thinking how would the situation have changed if you were there with me at that instant.
I did not get a chance to tell you this...but I still regret the day before my 10th birthday.. When you were planning a surprise B'day party for me and you and your friends avoided me just coz I should not know abt the surprise party..when you went to every friends' house in the apt to invite them to the party...n I misunderstood the whole thing and complained abt you to mom and dad, they yelled at you...you took it all and kept quiet and told me the next day at the party, that you avoided me only to keep the party a surprise, I only said 'sorry' once then, but from that day till this instant, I regret what I did..and I have been saying a million 'sorry', just because I misunderstood you..!
You are gone physically, but in my every thought we both live,talk and fight just like we would have if you were here with us..You are the best thing that happened in my life, then again, I didnt realize that until you were gone....
"tu to nahin hai lekin
teri muskurahat hai
chehra kahin nahin hai
par teri aahatein hain"
Partings are meant to be they say...but you parted a little too soon ...so now, I am waiting for the day when I join you Vishnu, to talk, laugh and fight.... all over again!
Would we still be fighting ? ...about clothes, for watching TV..
Would we still be arguing about the 'pettiest' of things?
Would I still be jealous of you, just coz you are smarter and prettier? because you are more responsible and because mom and dad most of the times supported you?
Would I still bug you with the 'silliest' of doubts in 'Maths'?
Would we still get the same dresses for all the festivals? Would I still be comparing which one of us got the better one?
Would I still complain about you just to get you in trouble?
Would I still always want to do the same thing you do? would I still try to imitate you in everything?
Would we still have 'fist-fights'?
Would we still have 'Konjacs' episodes with babbling conversations like ' kujjlu bujjlu, kundhala bundhala' that only u and I understood?
Would I still be using all your things and irresponsibly losing/damaging them?
...How would it have been now?
I am sure it would still be the same..although you are gone physically, at every instant of time, I keep thinking how would the situation have changed if you were there with me at that instant.
I did not get a chance to tell you this...but I still regret the day before my 10th birthday.. When you were planning a surprise B'day party for me and you and your friends avoided me just coz I should not know abt the surprise party..when you went to every friends' house in the apt to invite them to the party...n I misunderstood the whole thing and complained abt you to mom and dad, they yelled at you...you took it all and kept quiet and told me the next day at the party, that you avoided me only to keep the party a surprise, I only said 'sorry' once then, but from that day till this instant, I regret what I did..and I have been saying a million 'sorry', just because I misunderstood you..!
You are gone physically, but in my every thought we both live,talk and fight just like we would have if you were here with us..You are the best thing that happened in my life, then again, I didnt realize that until you were gone....
"tu to nahin hai lekin
teri muskurahat hai
chehra kahin nahin hai
par teri aahatein hain"
Partings are meant to be they say...but you parted a little too soon ...so now, I am waiting for the day when I join you Vishnu, to talk, laugh and fight.... all over again!
posted by Indy at 1:15 PM
3 Comments:
Dearest Indu
i guess you are sad and missing thinking of vishnu.I do understand the pain of it ,i too still have all our converstaion recorded in my mind.It is not as easy as we console to move on ,but i just felt like writing few lines for you related to it
Life is full of relationships, struggles and joys, philosophies we have adopted through experience. These can be hard to put on paper because they're intangible. They may be painful and often deal with private feelings. However, this can be a wonderful chance to share our feelings about vishnu, the admiration we feel for her, the inspiration she gave us when we needed it most...
No one dies as long as there is one person left in the living world who remembers with fond recall . . . and shares a thought, though that person has gone ahead. A person really never dies while there are those on earth who loved that person . . . One is never gone as long as there are those who remember with fondness . . . and as long as memory evokes a wistful smile. All those who have loved, and who have been loved, have earned a piece of immortality . . .
so vishnu is so lucky to have such a sisters ,realtives and friends who cherish her .
Indu thanks a lot for writing such a beautiful lines and very nice of you to express your love and affection .
loving sister
kirupa
Yes Akka...agree totally! There are days that I'm so reminded of her and yday was one such day! So I did what best I could do..blog about it..made me feel like I was talking to Vishnu herself!
I wish I had known her too.
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